yurlee’s Blog

it has been a while since i last blogged…. many things happened but
everytime i wanted to write something here, nothing came out. I felt
dry. bored. passive. or just dry.

Today, though, I regained my energy. from the most unexpected place–
my job. April 30, 2007, marked an ending to my times at acsh. Friends
who heard me complained about the job knows that I couldn’t waiting for
this day to come, but i never anticipated such… sadness.

the watery morning coffee, the awkward conversations, the pushy print
salesmen, the annoying IT crisis, the cheap low pay…. all of these will no longer bother me, but i feel sad. unbelievable.

I can not imagine waking up in the morning not seeing these ppl that i
saw almost everyday for the past 2 years… Maybe because I felt like I
might not cross road with many of them ever again, and they will kinda
just disappear in my life. saying goodbye is hard when the goodbye
seems forever…

"I wish I had a son…" an elderly co-worker said to me. thanks… i’m very touched…. in a weird way.

The colorful city of new york gave me tribeca film festival, jazz,
experimental theaters, underground debates, and unbeatable art scenes.
Yet i still felt dry. nothing seems to move me as much as the moment i
walked out acsh. I finally know what this lovely city might be
lacking– things that touch my heart.

There is still so many things I want to do here, and i think the list
will always be long no matter how much time i have… because nyc
simply has too much to offer. but for now, I think i’m ready to move on
to a new era. oh wait, but first, let me go rest a little at a place
that can always touch my heart– home.

it suddenly hit me that I finally finished everything for real!
wow it had been quite a journey since june 2006 that only those who experienced the same process would understand
it’s funny how we make such a big deal out of such a tiny step in life.. but maybe that’s what make life more exciting, no?
in 3 weeks, i will know for sure where my future 2 yrs will be.
good luck to all applicants out there!

i have absolutely no mood for work now… is it because friday night is near, or bcos the strong scent of the pink lilies in my office? i’m sssooo ready for my vacation!!

tmr is st. patrick’s day~ too bad Daisy is still traveling… or else she can demonstrate to us how to dress in green with style

when was the last time i felt so nervous?

is it true that the closer we are, the scarier it gets?
now it’s about 400 out of 1000, will this be as far as i can get?

I know it’s just a small part of life… life still goes on and it’ll still be great but right now i just can’t stop obsessing over it… somebody help me~>__< get me out~ or better yet, GET ME IN! :P 

who knows where this quote is originated from:

"If you love someone, Set her free…
If she comes back, she’s yours,
If she doesn’t, she never was…."

Why do I always remember that it is from a Brad Pit movie? or did that happened in my dream which brad pit loves me? XD (j/k i never dreamed of that!)

As i search on the Internet for answers, I found many people (see here, here, & here) posting the "new versions" of this quote. Some "new versions" i like, just for some giggles:

Shakespeare:
if you love someone, Set her free ….
If she ever comes back, she’s yours.
If she doesn’t, here’s the poison, suicide yourself for her.

Optimist:
If you love someone, Set her free ….
Don’t worry, she will come back.

Suspicious:
If you love someone, Set her free ….
If she ever comes back, ask her why.

Patient:
IF you love someone, Set her free ….
If she doesn’t come back, continue to wait until she comes back.

Marketing Specialist :
If you love someone, set her free
If she comes back she has brand loyalty
If she doesn’t, reposition the brand in new market

Bill Gates:
If you love someone, Set her free …
If she comes back, I think we can charge her for re-installation fees
But tell her that she’s also going to get an upgrade

HR Specialist:
If you love someone, Set her free by Offering her VRS and other benefits …
Then outsource her

Below is an entry from 3app’s blog:

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

Please allow me to introduce two new terms to the MBA lexicon: shing and MPAWS.

Shing [verb, etymology: shit, ding]: to be denied admission at all schools applied during a particular year. If 3app doesn’t get into INSEAD, he’d be shinged for the 3rd time.

MPAWS
[acronym, pronounced '-em'pause', not to be confused with menopause]:
stands for MBA Post-Application Waiting Syndrome. Term used to
designate the idiosyncratic behaviors of MBA applicants during the
admission decision period (ADP). Preliminary research has uncovered
seven documented cases of MPAWS:

The Arrogant:
overconfident during the ADP. First to post his impressive stats. Vents
when he finds out that some have received interviews and he hasn’t.
When he gets dinged by his dream school, rants on the BW Forum that
it’s their loss and that he won’t donate his future billions of dollars
to them.

The Coaster: confident during the ADP.
Usually works for a management consultancy or an investment bank, and
has a GMAT score over 750 and GPA over 3.7 from an Ivy League school.
Applies only to Harvard, Stanford and Wharton and is admitted to all 3
schools. Pretends to be a female on the BW Forum and gets a kick out of
it.

The Frantic: over-reacts during the ADP.
Reads all threads and MBA blogs on a daily basis. Tends to be the first
one to ask whether someone has received an interview and tries to
figure out whether there is a correlation between the submission date
and the interview date. Insists on finding stats of other applicants.
Frequently seeks advice from the Ask Sandy and Accepted threads.
Re-reads his or her essays a few times during the ADP.

The Mute:
silent on the BW Forum during the entire ADP, but upon acceptance
writes his first post. Thinks that ADCOM are trying to match the
profiles of applicants with posters on the BW Forum.

The Over-Achiever:
asks inane questions during the ADP but still gets into the school of
his choice. Extremely gullible. Gifted in technical areas yet clueless
in performing mundane tasks. Known to ask if he can exceed the word
limit by 5 words, if 1.5 lines can be considered as double-spaced, and
if getting an interview is a good sign.

The Touchy-Feely:
seeks emotional support during the ADP. Tends to bond with The Frantics
and The Over-Achievers. Always writes words of encouragement on the BW
Forum and on blogs. Likes to please others. When accepted, posts on the
BW Forum that he can’t believe he got in and that such school is his
dream school.

The Comedian: tries to write funny material on his blog, but doesn’t realize that no one is reading it.

yay~~ finally got to go ice skating this winter
it was freezing out, but perfect for a night on the ice.

free NYU scarf and unlimited hot chocolate kept us warm, Manhattan backdrop and great friends kept everything else romantic =D

Today as i do my weekly routine (walking around Urban Outfitter during my lunch break :P), I found a cool design book called Fashion Market 2. it caught my attention not only because its cute cover, but also because it’s by a Taiwanese girl

this designer Yiying, wrote two design books on London fashion markets, and created her own line– Noodoll. The line is pretty cute. the main character, Noodoll, is a male porn star in noodle town… yes u didn’t hear me wrong… porn star XD (see all other noodle town characters here: http://www.noodoll.com/index2.html).

I am always super excited to see Taiwanese artists/designers getting international exposure (I suppose having a book on Urban Outfitter’s shelves is one of the best ways to gain recognition among young ppl, no? ^_^) good job! I really hope more & more Taiwanese designers can prove their talents to the rest and have a space in the design world go go go~~~

It always scares me when several pleasant surprises all come at once… I feel like something bad might happen because I’ve used up too much luck =\

Today is a day full of surprises. Altho NONE of them are real plans yet, the news are enough to keep me on the edge.

First my mentor, who moved to LA one year ago, called me and wanted to discuss possible job opportunities in her company. I have to say if this was one year ago, I would be jumping up and down! Now that my plan changed, I don’t think this will effect me that much… but I still feel super grateful that she thought of me and gave me the opportunities.

And then, at work I took on a new project. Because this project involves video editing, the associate director is now lobbying for me to get me a more powerful desktop AND a new laptop! my computer is one of the best in the our office already– altho it’s 3 years old, it’s still a great G5 with a huge monitor… not to mention I have an extra MacBook to spare. and now a complete upgrade? that’s just.. chocolate-boobs-SWEET! I shouldn’t be excited this early tho… because who knows how long it’ll take for the decision to be made? it’s non-profit everything goes S-L-O-W here……

Last but not least, today is the decision release deadline for Anderson!!! I had been waiting for the whole week, checking my status like crazy. It wasn’t a good sign that I heard nothing from them till the very very last day (and the last few hours, too). But it’s GOOD NEWS  ^___^ man… such a relief… ain’t I lucky…. I don’t know how important this result is (in fact i do hope this is not so important after all), but it for sure is a confident-boost and takes some weight off my shoulder. It’s now a good time to thank all my friends’ help and support throughout the process~ i’m just beyond grateful to have all of you!!!

so yeah now i feel a bit scared… very happy but scared~ doesn’t it sound a bit too much for one day??? very odd…. >___<

The past weekend was great. Not only it was a long weekend, but also a first weekend since i finished all my apps. To celebrate, I crammed in many things I haven’t done for a long time~ very eventful

now i can finally brag about some fun things I did:
- went to a movie: Pan’s Labyrinth (loved it!)
- watched an off-Bway play: An Oak Tree (confusing…)
- got down to Chinatown for pie-gu-fan & grocery shopping
- had a Sunday brunch at one of my favorite french toast place: Cafe Orlin
- helped out a music video shoot for RAIN (rain2u.com)
- got my grooves on at MANOR (haven’t partied for more than a month!)
- did my annual apartment cleaning (hey this is fun too!)
- celebrated a friend’s bday with BBQ wings & beer (Happy Bday George!!)