this essay writing thing is literally giving me nightmares…. yet i’m weirdly addicted -___-
don’t know how I would feel when it is over…
oh well… i guess as long as I have enough chocolate supplies I’m happy =D
oh btw, HAPPY NEW YEAR to you all~~~~
it’s good to feel back on track… i’m back on the talking-to-myself mode.
the accountant in my office saw me talking to myself tonight… he must think i’m crazy XD
but it’s ok.. "what matters the most" now is to work hard for the last 2 weeks of app. process 
jia yo jia yo to myself (& JP)!
btw JP told me today that he does not want to end up in the same place with me because he wants to use me to expand his network -__- shin-jee-chung….
1. PIERRE MARCOLINI, the haute couture of chocolate
2. Jacques-Louis DAVID, Marat Assassine
S saw my bday party pictures and commented that I look preoccupied.
maybe i did have a bit too many things on my mind…
i did have fun tho~ just not as crazy as i would be.
seems like as I grow older, i become more uptight…
gosh i am becoming this old, poor, bitter, and uptight woman :O
maybe i need to loosen up more.
On the other hand, my work and app. schedules are awfully behind.
I failed to keep up with the timelines i set for myself… and that is just frustrating.
I need to be more self-disciplined and know when to sacrifice important ANTM episodes (the season is over now… so that’s one less thing to worry about 
yay caridee won~~) and when to sacrifice my fun times & beauty naps.
Anyways… I wish myself a happy birthday and looking forward to the year ahead. the year might have a lot of changes and surprises but whatever comes along should show me more directions which is great. I need to keep trying new things too~ we are only young once! in fact, i’m crossing one off from my to-do list today, thanks to dear friend Daisy *wink*
– Sir Winston Churchill
Generosity is giving more than you can, and pride is taking less than you need.
– Kahlil Gibran
finally finished the dance shows
two days of fun~~ have lots of thoughts and feelings but since i need to catch an early flight tmr, i’ll make this brief…
i obviously did not win an oscar or anything, but…but… so touched… want to express some of my thanks to you!
first, the girls at PMT were great! love u all, pussycats.
the most wonderful thing was my friends~ the whole experience was memorable because of you!
Hancy, George, Dave, & Todd– So glad to see you all there~ thanks so much for coming!! =D
Christy & Daisy– thanks for the LOVELY flowers~ my apt smells so good now!!
Jenn– i JUST ate another cupcake… so pretty and yummy!!
John– thanks for video-taping me & driving us home
Roberto– thanks for your lov’in & scream’in! made me screw up but still the best audience ever!
Jon– thanks to my best personal photographer 
Sijing– last but not least, sijing, thanks for coming from BOSTON for my show (and for french toasts XD)! such a surprise!!!
and for my distanced love ones… thanks so much for your messages and flowers, really hope you can be there too ^__^
i’m such a lucky girl
last night stage rehearsal…
i found it really really hard to show sexiness on stage…
i think i just look awkward and uncomfortable >_<
totally not feel’in it…..
I know expression/attitude has always been my weakness, but I feel it’s getting easier to force myself to be cute, or tough, or graceful, or crazy…. but… sexiness can not be forced!
sigh….. maybe i’m just not suitable for sexy
several hours till the show!!! :O
help!!! can someone please tell me how to be sexy?
Typical and hardly
The type i fall for
I like when the physical
Don’t leave me askin’ for more
I’m a sexy mama (Mama)
Who knows just how to get what I wanna (Wanna)
What I wanna do is bring this on ya (On ya)
Back up all of the things that I told ya (Told ya)
You’ve been sayin’ all the right things all night long
But I can’t seem to get you over here to help take this off
Baby, can’t you see?
How these clothes are fittin’ on me
And the heat comin’ from this beat
I’m about to blow
I don’t think you know
I’m tellin’ you to loosen up my buttons babe (Uh huh)
But you keep frontin’ (Uh)
Sayin’ what you gon’ do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain’t seen nothin’ (Uh)
I’m tellin’ you to loosen up my buttons babe (Uh huh)
But you keep frontin’ (Uh)
Sayin’ what you gon’ do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain’t seen nothin’ (Uh)
